Being alone for a long time makes it hard to be around people because seeing happy smiles around you makes you even more alone.
Sure? Idk, it’s your blog. It’s clearly up to you.
Derp. Long time no face. Do you mind? :(
Trois couleurs: Bleu
Oh god, deep. So you’re from around here hmm…
oh sadness you bastard get the fuck away from me
Too empty for words.
Yeah, but this is the first time somebody noticed that. I mean the fact the a smiley face isn’t enough. I used to say “thank you” all the time, and at one point I just assumed that a smiley face is enough. I don’t know, I honestly appreciate all the messages you guys send. But yeah, I get what you’re saying. But this is my blog, so I’m going to clarify things within this message. A smiley face means I’m really thankful about what you said (from the deepest part of my hypothalamus), and that I fucking love you for filling my daily dose of happiness. I really appreciate everything guys, just by visiting my blog and knowing that I have you - well that’s really amazing.
Here’s the problem. Some concerned people (like you), seem to over think things, psychoanalyzing everyone. I’m getting better, and I don’t really care if you don’t believe that. But it’s really annoying when people talk like they know everything about someone, you know? "…you seem to not want to help yourself." Really, man? Are you fucking kidding me? I do appreciate your concern, but I’m okay. I’m not going to deny the fact that I get sad sometimes, but that’s life. You can’t always be happy. People won’t be happy all the time. I publish sad posts to cope with all these shit. But it doesn’t necessarily mean that I’m as fucked up as what you think. What you’re saying is far from what I’m feeling right now, but thanks for the concern.
One of the scariest moment when you’re depressed is when you’re happy; because there’s that feeling like you don’t deserve it until you end up realizing just how fucked up you really are.